Body image
Body image is how you feel about your appearance. If you think your body looks awful, then you have a negative body image.Having a negative body image can eat away your self-esteem so much so that you start disliking yourself and think that you don't deserve the effort to look good. In a sense, it becomes a sad case of self-fulfilling prophecy.
Stop beating yourself up and start thinking positively about your body. While not always easy, it is possible to change how you view yourself.